Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you were the one To build me up and tear me down, Like an old abandoned house. What you said when you left Just left me cold and out of breath. I fell too far, was in way too deep. Guess I let you get the best of me.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
You took a hammer to these walls, Dragged the memories down the hall, Packed your bags and walked away. There was nothing I could say. And when you slammed the front door shut, A lot of others opened up, So did my eyes so I could see That you never were the best for me.
Well, I never saw it coming. I should've started running A long, long time ago. And I never thought I'd doubt you, I'm better off without you More than you, more than you know. I'm slowly getting closure. I guess it's really over. I'm finally getting better. And now I'm picking up the pieces. I'm spending all of these years Putting my heart back together. 'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through, I got over you.
Well basically i find this song very nice. Talks bout the guy's feeling of running away long time ago since on hindsight the girl left just like that. The guy is slowly getting used to it and feel better while in the midst of recovering from broken heart. For the part " I`m better off without you " is what the guy decide to spite the girl that he is better off more than she knows.
For me, many things have happen til today, and i learned. I starting to get over... except for the " I' better off without you " part, guess the whole song reflects my feelings right now.
The reason i wrote this post because only close friends visit me, so i hope what you read just remain here. Thank you.
Tuesday, June 26, 2007, it's 11:31 PM.
actually wanted to blog. but i DISCOVERED something.
Hmm so nvm. i discovered something BUT CANNOT TELL ! haha. too bad.
Kinda sad. Nvm, see you on sunday guys.
lz.
Monday, June 25, 2007, it's 11:42 PM.
11.47pm, hmmm. a sucky day in RP.
todays programming module, and because i miss last week lesson, i am totally lost today. i did not contribute at all to the team. hais. learn nth today. got a few la..but not all.
my team seems only to finish the project but not really care if the members are learning. sad. so left out.
anyway, just heard tmrs bball game ll be cancelled. sianz. miss the times we played, as a class. hmm.
so aft sch went to eat good food because tmr is my mums bdae. we went to a restaurant in bedok.
and my dad, mum, grandma, bro and his gf. so my dad took the lead and order his food,
Than my mum and grandma joined in :p .....
The environment is very good. It use to be half air conditioned. Now, its fully furnished. The outside is also very nice ! Take a look at the picture below, taking note the restaurant is located below a HDB flat. Yes ur normal and my HDB flat, yet such a nice restaurant !
Alright, see you guys !!! Tmr training !!! *sigh* another long tired day.
lz
Saturday, June 23, 2007, it's 3:25 PM.
Right now i am so bored. Thinkin of stuff which never will happen again. Why. Hais. My lifes only regret. Thanks alot man.
so tonight mayb going over ivans house to slack. Nothin to do, simply sianz.
Anyway, ytd went to have lunch with clarissa again. Went clarkquay to have lunch before going home lor. Nothing much la.. than at last night went over to daniels house to ton, together with boon and ivan. hmmm.
tk cares guys. my tagboard so dead. see le also sianz. people, tag... pls.. :(
Friday, June 22, 2007, it's 9:42 AM.
Now in class, ya.
Yesterday went clubbin', with justin friends at Attica. Discount offer, 13 bucks person so why not. BUT ! it was kinda disappointed. Tell you why later.
So met up with justin, jerry and justin two other friends namely, Yoshi and eugene.
Queue up. Because our birthday is haven reach, we are considered 17s. WTF ! Than justin was holdin a cig, than e bouncer damn attitude to justin. lol. RAise voice, ARE YOU 18! Are you sure ! NO, than why are you smokin' !
lol. so strict. over 18s given orange tag, unders no tag. so with tags, they can smoke and drink. we were given only soft drinks, NO SMOKING !
damn sad. cant drink. Even friends buy we take a sip, bouncer kpkb. so f strict. haha!
so arnd 9pm gather arnd Attica front door... here it goes:
went in. hmmm party not yet started..so walk around.
chillin...talking...
And friends...
Saw alot of stuff though... lol !
reach home arnd 1. hmmm. quite tired. gone home early because nx day, which is today i got school. lol
ltr going out too. tk cares guys!
Wednesday, June 20, 2007, it's 10:49 PM.
very sad . very sad , right now.
had quarrel with my god brother.
because he pay most of my cabfare, he mention it during quarrels. as all of you know, money is so sensitive.
i am kinda disappointed, if i know this would happen, i wldn sit a cab with him.
i nv pay back maybe due to forget, or tight at the wallet not i rmb and i don wan pay back. those who know me, am i such a guy ?
been so lonely in rugby recently, lonely. why ? i am missing companions. but nvm, i will survive.
i din say i have passion for rugby, i just want to try a new sport.
thats all. you guys may not understand this post, nvm. i am just ranting. thanks for visiting '
byes.
lz
Monday, June 18, 2007, it's 11:25 PM.
Hi peeps!
hmm. school tmr. gotta Test, and training late into the night. gonna be a long day tmr. sigh.
anyway, i am selling my 17 inch GREENISH YELLOW CRUMPLER ORIGINALS Laptop bag. @ of course discounted price since i used for less than 10 times at 50 bucks.
interested parties pls contact me !!! thank you.
just now met up with lun, ying, chuxiang and chee to have dinner at CP. yupp. went arcade to relieve our childhood memories b4 leaving. haha.
now gonna rest b4 sleeping! tmrs long day! SIANZ!
regarding my love life, haha. everything turn 360 just like my msn nick, so... i let nature take its course.
tk care peeps! see you guys soon around !
lz.
Friday, June 15, 2007, it's 3:16 PM.
Time now is 3.18pm, @ hougang mall with kok and ying. HAHA they are studying... i am " studying " with my laptop.
Yesterday met up with ying, kok and justin to bball lo. than aft tt eat kfc, go home rest awhile, than met up with ying and chu and cp lo. wanted to buy boots because i nid it for rugby.
so went to cp to check check b4 going hg mall to buy. it cost around 80 plus but with discount, only cost 70 bucks.
hmmmm... tken a few pictures below... personally like it too ! :)
Now i am blogging, i came across a group of kids seated a few tables in front of me. OMG ! They really scold all kinds of swearings and profanity. hais. its really sad, to have this kind of kids in spore to spoil spores reputation.
why cant they know by behavin like this turns off people ? they dress very long sleeves type, mature but simply bengz.. sorrry i mean small act beng not the real type.
asses them. turns me off.
so now i gonna do my stuff. tk cares guys!
Thursday, June 14, 2007, it's 11:48 AM.
Well, the 2007 rugby camp ended yesterday, great effort by the seniors SURELY!!!
So it was a 3d2 night stay in the campus, reported to the hall at 9am. Waited til around 9.30am than we start to settle down in the forum.
barangs barangs aside, our ice breaking games started. i simply love the ice breaking games, it is really cool and unique from other norm ice breaking games lar!
separated into two large grp, mixture of seniors and sexes, lol form a huge circle. The first person who say his own name. the person seated bside him ll say the first guys name and his own name and it carries on. Which means the last is gonna die..because he gotta repeat everybody name one by one before saying his own. haha. so its kinda fun.
the 2nd icebreakin game is a poncho in the middle than two grps will stay on eiher outside, when poncho is put down, i have to say out the member of the other side before he mentions his name. so its kinda how well u rmb tt person name ba...
than aft the icebreakers, we had lunch.
now the launch of this REALLY COOL system called the Angels-Mortals system. Each of us pick a number, and everyone of us are angels and have to take care of your mortal. However, everybody have their own angels and mortals. They ll know who their mortals are, and are suppose to take care of them thru out e camp indirectly, eg: i pass a lollipop to my mortal, but i have to give it to a friend to pass to him. So that the mortal does not know who is his or her angel. the middleman shld just help out and keep quiet. This is so cool man, imagine thru out e camp i taking care of my own mortal, and i am also taken care by a angel whom i dunno who is he or she. haha. Than we have our own envelopes pasted to the wall, angels are suppose to drop mails when nobody is looking, mayb at night or break times. u can even give to some other people non related to you.. such as u find her cute or pretty u can drop her a mail! haha.
TOO BAD ! my mortal i have to take care of is a GUY ! My, the no. girls are more than e guys, yet i am so lucky to get a guy! dots.
so aft lunch was to watch video on touch rugby, and the fundamentals of it.
after which training started, chng into training gear and train some drills la.
the 3 ups, the real tiring defence drills : every 5 m i proceed i have to retreat 10m. real tiring. and some lateral passes drills lo.
aft tt we hve games in the pool. divided into grps, play games like dog and bone using oranges in the pool. my! so hard. aft which the game rises to a higher level where each grps were given watermelons in the pool, with one member blindfoded. Searchi arnd the water for the watermelons, we proceed to other parts of sports complex to play. I was very unlucky, there was this senior in my grp, it sucks ! he is so pessimistic, told us to give up lar bla bla bla... i was like so turn off by his attitude. some more keep holding his gf by his side...
wash up. dinner. aft tt was movies time. but there was some problems, in the end, it was free time, end of day 1.
Day 2, had breakfast.
rest... training agian !
games next! yesh! we had water bombs war in the 3 basketball courts, so cool. i went arnd very cunning, to other enemy station and steal water bombs without them noticing than blast them with their own bombs. wahhaha. of course i get back full force by them. i regreet. haha.
clear up the courts. in the midst of preparing the bombs, my grp i was the only guys. for ur info, grps were random everyday la.. so tt day i was the only guy. than there was this cute girl lo.. frm yr 2.. but aft some research she was born in 89, same as me la.. hmmm. haha. i push her on e trolley up and down the slope la.. but tt was aft unloadin the bomb bags, not really playing la... but.. ya..
aft tt was dinner, than to the SCARIEST nightwalk in rp. divided into 3s in a grp, i was grp with one big size friendly joker, and another malay girl. it was scary alright, the story was about alice who died in the campus. than we have to navigate around with clues.
first we start walking on the roads inside the campus, than arrive at the sports complex, underneath the complex is a alley where sports equipements are kept. its like a prison type.. cages by cages, pitch dark. of course seniors hide inside and aim to fright us... some how it was real creepy. than clues lead us to alot stations like the toilet at the unfinished canteen, the basement, the stairs . my!
aft e nightwalk, had supper. free time.
3rd day morning woke up late, ALL OF US! at 9 plus, plus we had friendlies with other schools. so paiseh. NYP year one girls and senior girls, and the SAJC girls.
our year one girls play aganst their year one girls. while us, the year one boys play with the NYP senior girls. scary. so we had some help from our own seniors guys and girls. i still have some problems la.. i play wing, role only to dash thru like nobodys business and score a try. but its hard la. most of the time the ball will play in the middle... than very hard it gets to me by the wing for me to score lo... hmm still working hard though! it was a good exposure as the NYP seniors girls play competitive outside, and we got a good exposure. aft friendlies, the visitors left and our own guys play soccer. haha.
saw rachel, year one nyp. yeap rachel goh. was shock to see her seriously. Well some pretty girls there too in nyp and the saints. haha.
aft friendlies, was lunch and the reveal of everyones angels. everyone was really shocked la.. haha. me too. my angel was a guy, senior. though he nv really give me anything but he cares for me by his msgs to me la.
break camp, made new friends tts for sure. most are malay. hais. my chinese friend ryan stood me up, and miss the whole camp. sianz.
so i really enjoyed the camp all in all la.. tk care guys!
lz.
Sunday, June 10, 2007, it's 10:00 PM.
Alright, today is sunday. Tmr is Clarissa birthday, so i bought her out today to relax relax.
So we met around 12pm at dhoby mrt, ya and i am there with friends at 11.59pm. whooosh. haha. than she already reach 15 mins. kinda guilty.
than went to orchard cathay, bought tickets for men in white. hmmm.
because clar was hungry, we went to eat yoshinoya at cineleisure, and she bought a pendant there. than we MRT back to orchard cathay, to catch the movie of course.
overall comments for the movie men in white is :
Not too bad. Quite humorous for the director, shant tell you guys, very unusual narrator way to carry out the movie, and in reality. lol. any this movie is quite lame and funny, not much of a storyline, well local comedy what you expect ?. Answers the funny questions a human would ask about ghost! too bad it last only for 1 and a half hour.
so at 4.30pm, we were lost. so early... than we made our way to PS. after walking around, i decide to eat thai express.
my fav was curried soft shell crab rice. yumms. that time eat at esplanade. so today decide to change for new dish, i took southern thai curried beef !
*photos problem loading*
too bad. haha. than see her back to pasir ris with friends. in the end, give her a goodbye-friends hug la..
hmm. good end to a happy day. hope she have enjoy herself.
on another note, i be havin rugby camp tmr til wednesday. so bloggin on thurs maybe.
take care guys ya! hope everything goes smoothly for the camp, and as my msn nick says, i let nature take its course, or toll ? on me.
byes.
lz
Friday, June 08, 2007, it's 11:32 PM.
time now... 11.33pm, friday night 8th of June 2007.
So today morning watch the NBA Finals Game I. My fav team, cleveland lost. well.
than arnd 2pm went down to eat myself, b4 meetin justin and ying at cp. than co qiao see jasmine!!! been ages since i met her, and is working at bits n pcs and cp. caught us when she was havin smoking break. lol
than chatted awhile b4 we went to hg area... to pool a little, and eat our dinner. talk talk talk...catch up on each other ...
than my leg tt wound so long heaven heal up... siansssss !!! den put some bandage... tmr still got bball trainiing..
...... well my friend r/s problem finally over! pheeew... and i know they ll be stronger than ever !!! wahahha !
jiayou ba.
Anyway, ying bought this somewhere. and i am the 'ambassador' of this product !hahah! Call ying ying for distributor rights!!!
lz.C : [
Thursday, June 07, 2007, it's 9:01 PM.
today is 7th of June, 9.01pm.
So yesterday the guys had the guys talk at clements house. And some of them was obviously affected by the distractions such as PSP, CS..
in the end, only a few of us talk... and something happen... ya.
than after that we start to slack again... til around 2.55am i switch on for the ENGLAND vs Estonia. I watch because of DAVID BECKHAM ! once again, he prove his worth.
3 goals victory for england, and BECKHAM pin point crosses result in the creation of 2 goals out of 3... There was one period when he was really suck... but now he is proving esp to Mcclaren, he has something inside him!!!
So after beckham was sub off, i watch awhile than i went to sleep le. the rest was crazy with their new game, some stupid fish tycoon game...haha oops!
than woke up and left the house together around 11 plus, went to eat LJS, ivan went to work and i was partly sick, so went home and rest.
very bored. tmr morning gonna watch NBA FINALS GAME ONE !!!
CLEVELAND VS SPURS !! Hail King James please ... lol
okays... alot things hapen recently la, so al the best to al affected bah...
tk cares....
lz
Tuesday, June 05, 2007, it's 2:25 AM.
time now is 02:26am, and i just finish playing. i was playin happily with my football manager game,
tmr i going to chinatown to 'decorate' my laptop, so had to get the Garksin Card for redemption... than come across photos of the past.. with all my old friends.
there was this particular pic taken at sentosa on the LUGE ride, and memories came floodin back, feeling very nostalgia. cant sleep now... don know how long this gonna be at my back.
has been one year past and many things took place and changes in bwteen, but the judgement on me don seems to change yet deterioate.
i struggling to forget the past, and cherish the present ; like daniels title for his blog.
My...
lz.
Saturday, June 02, 2007, it's 8:16 PM.
After receivng the message, i am so so unlucky, i ride pillion with hwa and the wheels BRUSH my leg. 2.5cm flesh skin exposed la. than daniel put some alcohol .. oh my! It feels like 7th heaven ...
Bought vodka... on my house. just wanna spent some money to feel better.
Treat them 3 bottles of vodka... and i wanna get druk, tonight. ton at daniel house last night, the limonya taste great, with lemon. hmm
tk cares...
lz
Friday, June 01, 2007, it's 10:15 PM.
1015pm. 01/06/07
Didn know why these few days i am very moody, very sad. As if i just broken up. All along i handle singlehood since breaking up just fine, but din know why these few days some weird feeling keep haunting me, and tell you, it sucks big time.
Last night, went out with my clasmates to watch pirates of carribean and saw zicai and chuxiang. Coincidence, than at night we went to harbourfront balcony there eat and drink lo. drink hooch, face become hot. weird. i went home first and they stayed there longer.
Than today morning all of them skip school, but i never. I just want to go school, i don even want to have holidays, cuz it sucks. I got nothing to do, i rather go school everyday. Hais.
Anyway, tonight 3am england vs brazil. gonna watch. beckham is playin. my idol.
